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Monday, January 4, 2010

Love Affair.....

As I hold it in my lap I eagerly open it....
As my fingers touch the pages I can almost perceive their power.

The words.... the letters dance and sing... their promise brings a thrill to my heart.

As I turn I have to stop.
I just have to be still.....
With palms resting on the open pages I become quickly overwhelmed... the emotion overtakes me.
I close my eyes and feel them fill and spill unto my cheeks.

I am not alone.....
I am not left helpless, hopeless, or bereft.
I am not here left to just sit and ponder the nothings of life.....

I am seated at the feet of God.
In the presence of the Most High......
And my spirit can not help itself.... it must thrill at this knowledge.... it must react to the infinite.... it must feel.... and glory..... and rise.

A dry thirst that is finally quenched.... a deep longing that feels fulfillment.

There is no other.... it is the passion of my soul.
The depth of who I am.

Without it I shrivel and shrink.
I get lost and wander aimlessly.

When I accept it I lose my breath with its vastness.....
This love is so great.... so large.

When I open my eyes they are clearer, flowers smell sweeter, the sky looks brighter, my step is lighter and more free.....
The air becomes clearer, crisper, the water fresher.....

This is what it feels like..... to be touched by the Savior of this world....
To be allowed to be loved by the God of the universe....
To behold all that He is and all that He has always been.

In my hands I hold more than just words.
I feel the weight of more than just a book.
It is worth more to me than any worldly treasure that could ever be offered.

His words.....
His story....
To me.... to us all.

With the power to touch,
To heal,
To make known the mysteries of so much.

To feel the caress of love....
and feeling the knowledge that I am cherished, treasured, and so much more than I am right at this moment.
To deny it would only cause my heart to be separate from His.

So I can not.
I have chosen to come.... and to receive whatever it is He will offer me.
And let go of all that I am holding onto.
For this moment... in this capsule of time...

I have chosen to steal away in a love affair with my God.
And not in the way that the common understanding of what that word means....
But in the way it is defined: affair; anything done or to be done; anything requiring action or effort; concern: an affair of great importance.
To understand that and understand the importance of my relationship with my God.
And to fully understand that this love is unlike any other...
Not sordid or polluted like so many other kinds of love.....

But pure.... and amazing... true....beautiful and untainted.

Not just for moments that are fleeting... short term.... but for all time... ongoing.... and never ending.

He is the lover of my soul.....
and I belong to Him.

... until another tomorrow.


“But now, listen to me, Jacob my servant,
Israel my chosen one.
2 The Lord who made you and helps you says:
Do not be afraid, O Jacob, my servant,
O dear Israel, my chosen one.
3 For I will pour out water to quench your thirst
and to irrigate your parched fields.
And I will pour out my Spirit on your descendants,
and my blessing on your children.
4 They will thrive like watered grass,
like willows on a riverbank.
5 Some will proudly claim, ‘I belong to the Lord.’
Others will say, ‘I am a descendant of Jacob.’
Some will write the Lord’s name on their hands
and will take the name of Israel as their own.”

6 This is what the Lord says—Israel’s King and Redeemer, the Lord of Heaven’s Armies:

“I am the First and the Last;
there is no other God.
7 Who is like me?
Let him step forward and prove to you his power.
Let him do as I have done since ancient times
when I established a people and explained its future.
8 Do not tremble; do not be afraid.
Did I not proclaim my purposes for you long ago?
You are my witnesses—is there any other God?
No! There is no other Rock—not one!” Isaiah 44:1-8

1 comment:

  1. It's wonderful to see the changes and growth in the Lord in your life. You have given us a glimps of your heart. From unsure to complete surrender unto the Lord. You have made a full circle. I can't tell you how wonderful it makes me feel about you. You have been an inspiration to me always and even so now. Your expressions are beautiful and well defined in the beauty of what it is really like to fall in His presence. I shared this Blog with Bonnie and she agreed. There is nothing like being in Love with the Lord. Thank you for sharing your heart.
    I love you so much,